shut the fuck up,
i love you
InvincibleYou are not weak
For not being able to do it
You are STRONG
For stopping before it became a hazard
For quitting while you were ahead
You are STRONG
To admit you were weak
You are STRONG
Because you are not defined by this act
You are STRONG
And will continue to be so
And we will always be there
To catch you
To mend you
To dry your tears
To fight of the foes
And scatter the blues
We will be here
You are STRONG
And together we will be INVINCIBLE
What Have I DoneSat
Proud and vile
In your snakeskin silk
Vehemently in denial
Crawl on your belly
Press your fingers
In the embers
Writhe through the cinders
Bury yourself in the skin
Don't come near
Far from placid
You toil and struggle
Drowning in your shame
Can you feel their pain?
Ignorant to uphold your claim
What have you done?
For what you've done
Swing in the sunset
Broken neck and pride
On your ego
It swells beyond the noose
A mouthful of hungry flies
As the crows peck out your eyes
What have you done?
Hot Cross BakeryEvery spring, the equinox does bring
that sweet hot scent
Of doughnuts, pastries and hot-cross-buns
wafting from those old blue vents
They do it best, enlightening the dreary street
with their sweet fresh produce
Every spring that odour warm and sweet,
rides the air, busy minds suddenly enticed
A short stretch of pavement, ridden with promises
'Hungry tummies! Do not fret,
for you are soon to be fed!'
IncarnationThe only thing that moves is me, the slow rise and fall of my bones, lifted and lowered by the lazy bellows within their ivory cage.
Life, red and sweet races around the pipes of my structure, feeding strength to my motion-less joints.
A slow thought rises to the surface of my mind amid an elevator of pearly bubbles, rings of ripples exude outwards, as the thought dives once more, out of reach and out of hope.
It's glorious hide eludes me constantly. I cannot snare it. It teases me, rising enough to flash it's royal scales, before vanishing into the misty depths to a silent, gloomy grave.
Dreams like graceful herons wade to and fro, beaks dipping slowly to dabble and probe my conscience for my deepest, most warped thoughts.
A black shadow-drenched raven rides the air-currents of my psyche, the evil embodiment of my hatred, it's hooked sharp beak slick and sleek to snap at any soul.
In a vast riven recess slumbers a dragon, his sleep only disturbed to belch his scorching flames borne of
Dot Dot Dash!'I gotcha now, little bastard!'
It will never know what hit it.
I went tense as the creature twitched itself. My paws were ready, and my muscles were tightened to hold me down.
Any second now...
One more twitch, go on. Do it... Yes!
I catapaulted myself at the being, claws out and toes wide to catch it. Digging my hooked talons into the curly ground I carefully raised a paw to make sure I hadn't missed.
It was gone! I cast my eyes around desperately, where had my prey gone?
There, on the wall!
I was suddenly aware of my pets staring at me. They all burst out into strange laughter at my antics. Had I been able to, I would have blushed.
So I did what any foiled hunter does;
I bent backwards to preen my coat, casually as if it was my intended task anyway.
It only made them chuckle more.
I glared hatefully at the red spot that now rested gloatingly on the far wall. Stupid jumpy dot.
I rose to my feet and prowled out, I would not be humiliated by a bloody speck.
Why? Transgender Day of Remembrance 2011Why?
Transgender Day of Remembrance 2011
Do I hurt you?
Does your God hate me?
Do I scare you?
Does your self image suffer?
Is it anger?
Do I harm anyone?
Does your family suffer ?
Do I promote hatred?
Does it really matter?
Why do you hate me?
Why do you fear me?
Why do you hurt me?
Why must I die?
To make you feel better about yourself?
PRETTY IN CASTSmaybe she'll snap her wrists
or her ankle
dancing drunken at some rave
maybe she'll go through a windshield
and have twinkling bits of glass
stuck in her face
she's so pretty in her casts
damaged so perfectly
the prettiest thing I've ever seen
I only get to hold her when she's injured
I only get to kiss her where she's sore
OwnershipShe would have me,
She would kiss me and caress me,
Love me in her way,
Want me and desire me.
She would send me silly texts,
Giggle and laugh with me,
Cuddle and nuzzle me,
Sleep in my arms,
And wake with me.
She would possess me,
Become jealous over me,
Keep her hand in mine,
Show the world I'm hers,
And that she belongs to me.
And I would smile,
I would agree,
I would return her attentions,
Her touch and her kiss,
and I would lie.
And in my dark and lonesome hours,
I would cry,
Let my heart bleed onto the pillow,
And wish a thousand times a second,
That you would have me instead.
Smile prettyPretty face, gorgeous smile...
Warm embrace, laugh for a while.
The fondest kiss on her lover's lips
The sweet scent of roses on her pale fingertips.
A bite on his ear, a kiss on her cheek
She beams with warmth, the best friend you could seek.
Laughter at work, beautiful passion at home...
A hug for each person who feels sad or alone.
And while she holds you so tight and dooms all your frights...
....they'll never know she tries to end her life every night.
DiscernI can take
a hint without
my sense of self,
but it's so hard
to tell who is real.
July 24th, 2010
Anxiety DisorderI feel worthless, useless.
A pest, a weight, ruining everything.
I feel broken, shattered, like glass.
I have no hope, no light.
Feeling like running away.
From everything that curses me.
I don't feel like living with this anymore.
I feel like falling, endlessly, into the ocean.
Under the waves, choking, drowning.
Where I try to lift my hands up.
My body is heavy, my mind is scrambled.
I don't think normally anymore.
The words don't have a proper sentence.
I listen to their poison lies, over and over.
I can't do much else, it's the only thing in my head.
I've wished and worked hard.
To no avail have my efforts been.
So I suffer night after night.
Day after day, time after time.
I will continue to suffer, I fear, always.
Forever. I don't think I'll ever get better.
I feel like surrendering. I feel like choking.
I don't feel like I'm alive anymore.
I feel like I'm dead inside.
The emotions I once had, that were strong.
I still feel them, but this stress gets in the way.
No matter what I
A, B, C, D, E, F, G...
Gummy bears are chasing me
One is red, one is blue
One's trying to steal my shoe
Now I'm running for my life
'cause the red one has a knife
A word can say it all
but there are some subtle moments in life
that doesn't require it at all
Packed with love, you gift your daughter
your heart wants it to say, that you love her
She might take it with a sigh
or with a glitter in the eye
either way, you got the reply.
When the string of friendship gets a knot
it's hard to say what happens to the heart
you want to talk to her, you try to look at her
when she looks away, you get the answer
you are hurt, sad that you did something bad
A tight warm hug from your mother
tells what you have not what you had.
You and your brother get into a fight
you yell, shout, throw tantrums, run out of sight
you sit, weeping at a corner all through the night
when he comes and sits right next to you,
you know everything's alright.
You want to talk to him, you want to tell him
how you feel and how you have felt
he looks at you, gives a cute smile
that itself makes your heat melt
You wanna prove yourself, want to show who you a
Could I Send You The StarsCan I send you the stars?
A million twinkling lettters
Waiting above your head each night to be read
In gentle melody like midnight lullabies
For the girl I dearly wish could hear them.
Can I borrow your moon?
I know without it your nights may feel empty
But I envy its lovely radiance shining
Upon those two eyes
I wish I could see wish I could gaze into
So instead could I borrow your Moon?
And gaze into it hoping I'll find the loveliness
Of your eyes there instead.
Could I steal your Sun?
And pocket it's millions
And millions of memories
Of lightly caressing you with its rays
Knowing the feel of every beautifully delicate
Part of you for every day of every year..
Could I lease your dreams?
And reside there with you
Underneath our stars' gentle lullabies
And beneath the Moon's loving gaze
Away from the Sun's prying rays
Since you're all I really need.
So could I send you the stars
And hope they'll send my love too?